Marriage. Do I believe in it? Yes. Do I want to be married? Eventually. I hope I do get married for love. And I want to get married for love. I hope I live a long and happy life with my true love and we grow old together.
My grandparents were married for 59 years before my grandpa passed away. And they were the perfect example of what love and marriage should be. Did they bicker? Ohh yes. Did they tease each other? Every day. Did they love each other? There was never a doubt for anyone that my grandpa loved my grandma with all his being. And my grandma who can seem cold at times certainly had that cold heart melt thanks to him.
Every time one or the other would be sick and end up in the hospital the other would be restless and would only be okay when the other one came out. My grandma had been with my grandpa since she was 15. She turned 74 this Jan. Ever since she'd been 15 all she'd ever known was how to live with him. And now that he's gone things are changing, but I know that she will always love my grandpa.
I don't really see myself getting married in the next five years. I doubt even in the next 10 years, but beyond that who knows? And I would love to get married. And I'd want my bride to have a long beautiful white dress, and I'd be in a tux and all our loved ones would be there.
Canon in D would play. We'd say our vows and I'd probably spill my feelings onto those words and my voice would be trembling because every time I actually speak my feelings I get nervous.
I'd see her walking down the aisle towards me and she'd smile and I'd smile and I'd know that she was the one meant for me. And I'd know that she was my love, my life. And we'd be married. And we'd kiss as husband and wife. And I'd cook for her breakfast the very next day and we'd talk for hours. And we'd dance to music. Not fast songs, just slow songs. So she'd be in my arms. And as life went on, we'd have our first child, whether its a boy or a girl doesn't matter, I'd just want them to be healthy. And hopefully my wife would love reading so we would read to our child all the time. And when the baby came we'd spend hours watching Disney movies. And then our second child be come along, and eventually our third and fourth.
And they'd grow up, we'd help them through their problems. My daughters have a broken heart? Their ex boyfriends (or girlfriends, I won't judge) would have a broken arm. My sons are nervous about taking a girl out on a date, I'd share with them all my awkward experiences. And we'd teach our kids to love unconditionally and if it was meant to be their people would love them just as hard and just as unconditionally.
And we'd watch them graduate, and get careers and get married. And we'd watch and care for our grandchildren.
And when my wife would feel sick, I'd be there holding her hands. And when I'd be sick she'd be there reading to me.
And we'd sit on our porch and watch sunsets holding hands.
And when the time came, whichever one of us left this world first, the other would follow when the time came, and then the party would be begin. Then we would truly be together forever. And I'd introduce her to my grandparents, and my loved ones that had been gone would be reunited with us. And we'd watch down as our kids and their kids and so on as they all found love, even if it'd be in a hopeless place.
And I know I don't mention my parents, or sister or friends very much in this little daydream, but trust me they'd be there. I'm just focusing the daydream on myself and my wife whoever she may be. Notice I didn't describe her, because I don't know who life will send my way. But I do hope she's on her way.
And even when death parted us, we would still be together. Forever.
"Every breath, every hour has come to this, one step closer...I have died every day waiting for you, darling don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more."
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