Tests

Does anyone else get horrible test anxiety? I do. Forever and always. Sometimes the tests really aren't as bad as I imagined. And other times they are extremely horrible. Sometimes I think I do really well only to find out I sucked monkey butt. Other times I assume the worst and end up doing okay.

I hate how much tests are a part of our life. I literally feel sometimes like I go to school not to learn, but to "study" what'll be on the next test, only to forget it as I rush to "study" the next material. I hate feeling that way. I hate tests, I wish there were some other way. But there doesn't seem to be. I don't know. And the career I want to pursue, sucks because tests go hand in hand with it.

It really makes me nervous. I need to study more, and trade for a different better brain, because the one I have doesn't seem to be understanding what it is that I want.

Today I had a math test. Yesterday an Anthro test. The Friday before that a French quiz and a Math quiz. The week before that an essay, a French test, and a Math quiz. And the week before that a French and Math quiz. And so on.

And next week, I have an essay due, a Math quiz and a French test. It's exhausting.

I wish there were other ways to learn and have a different way to show that we've learned.

I really hope I get better at tests. On the bright side I don't think I did too badly on either of my tests this week. Fingers crossed.