Growing Up

"When I grow up I want to be doctor," said the 18 soon to be 19 year old.

^^ That's me. It's awkward saying "when I grow up" because I'm 18. 18 year olds are considered much more mature, young adults. But I really don't feel old. I don't, I still have some friends I talk to that are in HS.   I went with friends to play laser tag over spring break for crying out loud. I'm not an adult.

I don't want to grow up. It's scary. There's so much to handle and do. So many responsibilities. I don't want to deal with that just yet. Believe it or not, call me crazy, but I don't want to move out of my house yet. Simply because I know I'm not ready. I don't have a job or a car, what the hell would be the point of me moving out?

Sure sometimes my parents can be frustrating but they love me, and I've got a good thing going for me right now, why fix what isn't broke ya know? And yeah I'll admit it, if I'm living at home, free food, free laundry, TV, internet, phone etc. Tons of benefits! I'm fine for now. And I do love spending time with my family, sue me for not being an average teen who can't stand his parents or sibling(s). That's not to say I don't find them annoying sometimes. We all do.

A lot of my friends are out getting jobs, dropping out of college, getting married, having babies, moving out and doing all these crazy and wild things. I don't understand how that happens, I'm not judging but I really don't envy them. It's just weird thinking of a friend that I grew up with moving out, or getting married. We aren't even that old. Just barely 18-20. I personally think they all need to calm their tits. Pardon my language.

I guess this is why I love the story of Peter Pan, the boy who refused to grow up. It's an intriguing thought, but somehow I think society wouldn't accept it, and rather than thinking what a cute boy, they'd think what an immature loser.

Now that's not to say I don't want to grow up ever. I do, just not right at this moment in time. I want to enjoy life, I want it to slow down, because I'm not ready. I know eventually one day I will be ready, but until then I don't wanna!