I don't remember the order but we'll start with the beginning one. I was at school just talking to her.
The first girl was my first crush ever. Way back in elementary school. I'm still friends with her, but in elementary school we were the best of friends since kindergarten. When she found out I liked her everything went to hell and it wasn't me who told her, but I had to admit it when she asked. And so I did. But the drama didn't end there and eventually I was made out to look like a bad guy so we stopped being friends for a while. I don't like her like that anymore and it's been years since I've felt feelings for her, so I don't know why I had a dream with her in it...
The next part of the dream was with the first and only girl to date that I have told that I love her. And I don't mean love like a friend but actually love. And we weren't even going out. I know it sounds stupid but I wasn't even the first to say it, she was. Her exact words, and I still remember and this was in the middle of high school, she said "Scott would you believe me if I told you that I'm falling in love with you?"
We were best friends for a really long time. And once high school started we drifted because of her boyfriend. Later on she broke up with him and at the end of our sophomore year we rekindled our friendship. That summer was the best and worst. We would constantly be texting and then we'd call each other and stay up till four in the morning talking on the phone and waking up at 8 am and we would text.
I did fall in love her. But there were so many things that got in the way. There were people and lies and conflicts bigger than her and I. And when tragedy struck her life I tried to be there and at first I was but she stuck with the wrong people and drifted from me. And now? Now she's in a relationship with some guy that hates the idea of her even having friends. I talk to her time to time and it's always has to be in secret from her boyfriend.
In the dream we ran into each other and were just talking.
The third girl was the friend I made in the middle of my senior year. She's the one I started hanging out with because she was new to school and no one would talk to her. So I decided to. I thought she was pretty and seemed nice. And we became instant friends. It didn't work out because she was a junior and I was senior and I was graduating and knowing from experience how to tough it was to stay friends with someone I knew a relationship would be even harder.
We're still friends. And in the dream it was her graduation and I went to see her, and I saw her from afar and she looked very very pretty but I wasn't able to talk to her because she was dragged away and I suddenly found myself surrounded by everyone I'd ever known.
I have no idea what these dreams meant. But there they are. Maybe I should talk to them?
Who knows.
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